Sahja Yoga -- My Experience

[SergiuxxBogdan]

Hello

This is my first post on this forum, so I hope I don't make to many mistakes.
I just wanted to share with everyone my troubles that started when I investigated and used the Sahaja Yoga Technique.
I intended this article to be a warning, but on second thought, I do not know if it is fair. I don't want to claim superiority above a member of this Sahaja Yoga group, however it is my personal impression that I do have more clarity on the subject than most of the members.
First of all, a little about myself. Male, 26, programmer, living an existence around holland. I have been interested since a child in the "occult". I am pretty sure I am a "new soul" on this blue floating rock. However, I do have "programming" since an early child, age two, or even less. At that age, I did not got those "night horrors" that Philip talked about in all their variety. I think it was a more "smart" way. Instead of dreaming horrible stuff I had a lot winged people (later i'd recognize them as angels) teach me lessons about life and my "mission" on earth. I do believe though that some of the information I got during that age was and is correct, however vastly distorted. Anyway ... i'd call these types of dreams Pleasure-Hells, since they are far more subversive than any brute force attack on a youngling.
So ... my interested in the occult led me to a lot of organizations. Starting with Tantric Sex Groups and ending with Sahja Yoga.
I choose to talk about it since it did the most harm to my being.
When I first encountered it, it seemed pretty ok. However deep down I knew something was rotten, but I'd ignored the feeling since I was tired of searching and searching and searching. My troubles began as I started to do their "workshops". I don't know how they are called now, but it is exactly as Philip described it on their site. I felt a strong current on the top of my head, like there was an ombilical cord going off into the sky. I do believe my kundalini was awakend since I was a child, and this was sort of a distorted feeling. After several sessions, severe headaches started to appear. Nausea, pain and fever. I'd quite the Yoga, however I felt as this kind of "fog" around these people, like they were lost in it, muddled by it. I chose to ignore it until that point in time, but still it was pretty dense. The headache was severe so I went to see a doctor. I took a mental and psychiatric test plus a CT scan. All were clean. They could not find anything physical, so they gave me pills for migraines and sleeping pills. The effects sort of passed, but it ruined several good years of my life. I sometimes feel it again very weakly when I am quite ungrounded, but I can control it. I do not know exactly what happened since I am a skeptic even about "darkforce" or energy or chakras, etc. However, there's one thing I realized, that I've been looking the wrong way. It's not outside ... it's inside.
I guess it's a lesson learned, the hard way!
Hope someone will take care about this yoga system. Don't want to bash it or anything but just post this here, perhaps someone is encountering something similar and takes great care. I presonally do not trust that Sri Mataji Nirmala Devi a bit.

Bogdan

[Philip Goddard]

Welcome to the forum, Sergiu!

Thank you indeed for your thoughtful and aware observations on your Sahaja Yoga related experiences. Such reports help underline the warning that I give in Sahaja Yoga and Other Kundalini Practices - A Serious Warning.

I myself would word differently what you say about yourself being a 'new soul', for pretty likely you'd be a no-soul person (http://www.clarity-of-being.org/dark-force-true-nature.htm#The_true_nature_of_the_human_soul). I thus wouldn't take it as definite that you have some soul programming - though it's advisable for us all (me included) to be open to the possibility that we do (still) have some even in cases where it looks as though we haven't or somebody's told us that we haven't any.

It's nice that you've recognised those apparently nice and positive inner experiences during your childhood as being really 'more of the same' as the traumatically horrible night hells - just a different ploy by the dark force, and, just as you say, all the more 'smart' and subversive for their superficial attractiveness. So those supposed angels and whatever (every one an illusion created by one's mind under hijack control from the dark force) get indoctrinating young people, stuffing them with illusory realities in which they appear to have some sort of mission, task or obligation, and, of course, are being effectively directed by 'destiny' and supposedly higher beings (i.e. submitting themselves to the dark force's control agenda) rather than properly manifesting their intrinsic free choice that would lead them naturally into some sort of genuine self actualization process.